I’m Not Perfect, But I’m Pretty Damn Awesome

Hey Warriors,

Let’s get one thing straight:

I’m not perfect.

Never claimed to be.

The kind that makes you laugh harder.

Live louder.

Love deeper.

It wasn’t always like this.

There was a time when everything felt heavy.

When all I could see was the fight ahead, the pain behind, and the limitations closing in around me.

Everyone kept reminding me I had kids to live for, and yes, I love my children more than life.

But someone, a friend who I will always be grateful for, said something that saved me in a different way.

He said:

“There’s still so much fun to be had.”

And in that moment, something clicked.

I wasn’t just a mom surviving.

I wasn’t just a woman with heart failure.

I wasn’t just the sum of my medical records.

I was still me.

Still full of dreams.

Still worthy of laughter.

Still allowed to dance, to travel, flirt with joy, and create something wild and beautiful out of this chaos.

That one reminder cracked the heaviness open and let light pour in.

I remembered that I’ve done amazing things.

I’ve built, created, loved, healed, and grown into a version of myself that younger-me would be proud of.

No, this isn’t the life I originally planned.

And yes, heart failure has absolutely flipped the blueprint upside down.

But in rewriting the plan, I’ve discovered something priceless:

Freedom.

The freedom to do things differently.

To live with no fear.

To stop waiting for “someday.”

To chase joy now.

To trust the process, even when it doesn’t make sense.

Living like that?

That’s dope AF.

I don’t want to be known just for surviving.

I want to be known for living.

For laughing loud.

For loving big.

For choosing joy again and again and again.

This journey hasn’t been easy, but it’s been worth it.

Because every twist, every scar, every new route I’ve taken has led me to one truth I carry in my bones:

I may not be perfect,

But I am strong, sacred, vibrant, full of life, and pretty damn awesome.

And the joy?

The joy is real.

The joy is mine.

And I’m not letting go of it.

“I may not be perfect, but I am strong, sacred, vibrant, full of life, and pretty damn awesome.”

With Heart,

💙 Phoenix